Nothing is 'the same' Anymore

sometimes wood ,metal nd concrete can hav a character and u feel emotionally attached to
them...they will be there for time to come...but i wont be .....

it is when we loose something we think abt them and learn abt them and we value then ...when u are getting enough from life..we(most people) dont think abt it..we takes things for granted...
i m now intensly choked by this feeling of abt to loose ....
i am not sad...may be i m , but i m not realizing it..but its more like something has put a hole
and from my inside i m being drained ... a vaccum is being created...and the once noisy inner world is being gripped by a silence ..a silence so cruel...a kind of lonilenss and it stares at me from distance...and its mocking at me ..
i m not afraid..its only a feeling that i cant discribe in words ...but many can feel now...like a baloon so colour full ....so playful...so much it floated in the air of life ..and now its emptied like it can never again be the same as before...my thoughts dont have a pattern that can be defined.....they wander in the past not wanting to look ahead....let it rest there for some more time before reality puts its icy finger on them....

PS : this is bandamillayima personified in my utter way....and i m not senti...just trying to be ....

THREE INNOCENT MEN

Location :: somwhere in the southern tip of indian sub continent
characters :: three young healthy homosapiens , gender- male,students,specifically Engineering students

plot :: the usual useless meaningless conversation in a highly useless day
let the characters be called "blu" , "tlu" , "clu"
cut to the scene ::
clu returns home after a day of highly rewarding programing task(the first time in a year)
and finds blu nd tlu sleeping...crap..they were sleepin when clu left home early morning("10 : 30 am"). clu as usual settles in front of PC going thru the same OLD routine..after an hour or so tlu wakes up..( oooppsss thats unsual ...the time is only 6:30..not the time for dinner..) tlu approach the third character blu..he still sleepin..and wakes him up...

cut to scene 2 :: the conversation between blu and tlu
tlu :: da blu ...eneekada raville thodangiya orakkam alle...
blu raises his head
tlu :: korachu neram enittu erikada...njan raville randu manikkoru orangilla

blu:: aaahh.. nee randu manikkooru veruthe onarnnu erunnu waste akki alle....
njan athum orangan use cheythu..neee veruthe erunnu samsarichu time waste akkathe kedannu orangan nokku...
both blu nd tlu goes to sleep again ...but this time in the same bed(plzz...dont misunderstand them...they are only occassional g*ys :) )

cut to scene three.....
after an hour or so of peaceful sleeping the natures alarm call ringed (...hunger ...both blu and tlu are very good at this one thing...eating ...)
both are awake now..the conversation again...

tlu :: da enthina oru divasam ethra samayam..24 hour oru divasam vendayirunnu alle...
blu :: sherikkum ... orangiyittu polum theerunilla samayam...

meantime Clu is enagaged in his usless chat with some polish girl(or swedish?? or kiwi?? or philipino??..aaaaajhhhh... doesnt matter so long as it is a girl ; )
hearing that very valuable point he abandons his virtual companion nd joins the conversation...

Clu :: sathyam ..oru divasam 12 manikoor thanne dhaaralam aanu alle...

Blu :: mmm...oru 16 manikoor kedanotte alle

tlu :: sheriya ..oru 12 hour orankkam bakki 4 hour ...bakkie ella karyam cheyyan alle...

blu :: sheriya .....24 manikoor olla karanam ..enthoram time annu oru divasam waste akkunne....

Clu :: samsarichu samayam kalayanda...baaa veegam bhakshanam kazhichittu vannu kidannu orangam ....

..... and the three guys walks away into their innocent conversation............


this was the most philosophical conversation ever made on earth ... such profundity rarely grazes the intelluctual echelons of CET...

P S :: nobody has the right to question my authority over my empty thoughts or to refute them....